Hi everyone, back again.
So today is the 31st of July and i just came home from a family holiday. On the holiday i secretely stuggled with everything but didnt want to burdin my parents by telling them so i kept everything to myself.
About a week ago i had the most surreal dream and for some reason it made sense and in a weird way it felt like it could happen, which it won’t. I was at school and in the cafiteria when i heard mummbering and the next thing i know i jump over the counted and grab a knife andrun out of the school, going into an alleyway. From there i write a letter saying goodbye to everyone and i was about to die when a guy in my year, who i havent spoken to in ages, comes up to me and says its okay and ican get help and that so many people love and would miss me. I was in shock and as he took the knife awayhe hugged me. An ambulence was called and i got in it and woke up. Some people would take this as a sign that i am meant to live on and that it just shows but to me it put things in perspective and that the guy doesn’t care about me and thati know for a fact cuz i haven’t spoken to him in so long and that i know if i ever acted upset that no one would follow me.
so yes that was my dream and i just thought i would document it here before i forget it
xoxo 🙂